i will

i will tell you all of these things honestly. i promise. when the time comes, there's nothing i can't hide from you. sorry. one more time sorry. i don't know that this will make you hurt or not. but i do feel guility to you.

some of my art works

i just want to show you some of my art works. i did this while i was in grade 10. haha. actually now i am in grade 11 already. wkwk :) i believe that Bella n Setyo do remember these things. hope you enjoy ^^

and this poster is my last bi poster in grade 10, so i captured it :)

what do you think? ^^

big WHYs

WHY there are so manyyy people pray and hope the best for me?
WHY are they supporting me and trusting me?
WHY are they hoping me to be with them again?
WHY are they accompanying me study until i die?
WHY are they never stop care about me?
WHY do i have to feel this way?
WHY do i have to do this alone?
WHY do i have person like them?
WHY so manyyyy people out there want me to trust that i will come back together with them again?
WHY no one leaves me alone and ignores me?
WHY situations are different to compared?
WHY can't i answer all of these questions?

a note to God

Dear God, what else i can say to you?
You've done many things in my life.
such the greatest thing You've given me all the time.
please give me one more chance to fix this.
I just want to live my life normally and happily.
God, You are the one who knows me most.
I believe that U'll give me the best.
U know what do i want to do,
U know what i want to be.
I don't want to force You anymore, God.
I just can say thank you for all.
However, You still take parts n my life, to decide and to make me life in your way.
Praise and honor to You, God
Amen

Thank you :)

i have a friend
h'e's really kind
I have a test for moving school at wednesday n thursday. he's the one who accompany me for 2 days. i like him. i feel totally comfort while i'm with him.
sorry to..
say,but it's forbid to love you.
thank you for waking me up at 4 a.m. to study
thank you for accompanying me study
than you for supporting me
thank you for calling me and your pulsa is zero now because of me.
sorry.
thank you for encouraging me all the time
thank you for making me sure
thank you for coming to school to accompany me although only few minutes
thank you for your kindness
thank you for not sleeping to waking me up for study
thank you for listening to my problem which is very many
thank you for making me comfort beside you
thank you for all u've done to me
i really appreciate it.

dedicated to, you :)

michael jackson dies

Jackson's Body Arrives at the Coroner's Office
michael jackson is the king of pop. he dies at Thursday, june 25, 2009 in Los Angeles. he is 50 years old. he is an incredibly famous pop singer and a song writer. some say he dies because of heart attack, some say because of a broken kidney. so manyyy people say this, say that without knowing the truth. hmm this is the biggest sad news to the world.
We lost our talented idol and athough he died already, his song will always be our memories, and won't never die. All world sad and wish the rest in peace of MJ! He is now immortal like Elvis n Marylin M :(

6 years are short

6 years are so short for me which full of happiness and pain.
i don't want to continue this feeling.
i promise to myself and my heart.
i really have to open my heart for another boy.
i have to open my three eyes that life is cycling now.
i want to open my heart for someone, but..
i doubt it.
i don't know why.

dalam 6 tahun ini sangat membahagiakan dan menyakitkan.
semua bercampur menjadi 1, tetapi justu kebahagiaan memenangkan dari sakit itu sendiri.
sehingga itulah yang membuatku bertahan dalam situasi apapun.
tolong pergi dari otakku, tolong keluar dari hatiku, dan jangan muncul di depanku,
kamu masa lalu yang terlalu membahagiakan ku.